Well. I thought I'd done away with all the uni phear and I was fine, BUT NO. Apparently not. Fuck you, university. Why must you be so annoying to sort out. WHY.

So. I wanted to go to Greenwich. But it's crap. The place is hell yes please but the uni is fake in terms of the league table or whatever. I just looked. I'm going to spy on Greenwich tomorrow so till then, I won't properly know. But still. Everyone [by which I mean mainly job employer people] pretends not to judge people by where they went to uni or what they did, BUT THEY SO DO. Like, if I'd gone to Greenwich and I was against someone who went to Oxbridge, they'd clearly pick the Oxbridge person over me. Yes, I am being a cynic, but it's true. ¬_¬

And the only decent place I applied to is Brunel. Brunel is actually higher than Southampton on the league table thing, I found. Plus they've just spent bazillions redoing everything because it's their 40th year. Yay. So I need BBB to go there. But I am a thicko at A2 [more so than I was at AS] and now I don't even have German in which I would have probably done okay-ish. Also, I randomly got a shit mark in Philo in January [IT MADE NO SENSE.] and got a shit mark in Chem also which has brought my grades down no doubt. Curses. But I'm retaking AS Bio Foundation, so hopefully that'll bring my AS mark up.

I have 170 points [excluding Gen. Studies. Obv.], so I need 130 from A2 to get BBB. Is it still 50 for a B, 40 for a C and whatever, like at AS? I.e. to get 130 points, I would need 2 Bs and a C? Or what.

I dislike being stupid. Double drat.

Also, where the hell is Brunel. Middlesex, apparently. Near Hounslow or something. Right. How fake. It's near London though. I want to go to London. London is exciting.

Who've thought that making CDs would be so stressful.

I have to go do some chemistry homework. Which makes no sense. As we haven't actually done it in the lessson. Good one, Renyard.

In other news, Dr Plumbe is so fake. Today's lesson was hilarious. For no reason. The Goat and I wrote her memoirs. Dr P's, I mean. "My Like As A Flake" is what it would be called. Ho ho.

In other, other news, I haven't spoken to Duncan in ages. It is vaguely stressing me out and it makes me paranoid. Tsk. I went and had a nice, long bath though. And I read a book in the bath and it was nice.

1. PAIN. WOMB PAIN. Bloody hurts. Never had this before. Interesting. EVERYTHING HURTS. Not just womb pain! Idiot.

2. I am shocked at the revelation that Mr. Conlin read Pippa's LJ. What the hell?! I'd like to know how he found it.

3. Haven't seen Polly in eh-jizz again. POLLY! WHERE ARE YOU.

4. I made a collage the other day. And one yesterday. I like them both. Shocking. One was on a bit of corrugated card I nicked from work. And the other was on wrapping paper. That is to say, I wrapped someone's present in newspaper, and then made a collage on the newspaper, then wrapped it proper wrapping paper, and then wrapped it in a layer of newspaper.

5. Duncan. IS THE BEST BOY EVER.

6. Read above.

7. I do not understand the chemistry homework. At all. Couldn't do any. Guess who'll be in trouble tomorrow.

8. HELLO EVERYONE.

Dreaded chemistry exam was this morning. Erg. Well. Half of it was quite hard/sort of okayish, and the rest was quite horrific. It's so stupid though, because I did actually know it all, but I fucking well forgot. Even though I revised it like, half an hour before on the bus. Erg. I hate my memory. And also, just realised some retarded and idiotic mistakes I made. I.e. I said that bromine was more reactive than iodine. And then I realised, but just as I was going to change it, it was the end. ERG. I don't think I've failed though. Probably a D or something. Hope I get a C though. D = no.

Glad that that's over now though, because I have no more exams. Till June/July, when millions will ensue.

Just went to make something in Photoshop and I couldn't do anything. Shit. Photoshop skill has disappeared apparently. Not that I had much anyway. But still. Dislike not having enough time to do that kind of thing anymore. Alas. Started making a collage at work on Saturday though. I like it so far. It'll probably be ruined soon though.

PS. Can someone send me some inspiration? Please thanks.

PPS. Duncan. Is the best boy ever. Love ensues.

- Mrs Page continues to be our best friend ever.

- Polly and I went on the best trip ever to ASDA by the train station as Castlepoint is still out of action. We made numerous friends on the way.

- Bummed around with Lydia et al in the IT room. Laughs ensued. "COME INTO MY SHOP I SELL YOU TWO PENCE CHEAPER!"

- Diana, Chloe and I had an interesting conversation with Phil about his degree antics. Hahaha, he said he'd help me with chemistry. Fantastic. No idea why; I mean, I suck at chemistry but it's not like I asked him.

- Re-drafted my 3rd draft of philo. Haha. Well, I wouldn't count it as a re-draft. Just changed a few sentences/words here and there.

- Discovered that I have another offer for uni. Portsmouth. 220 points [or 240? Can't rememeber]. How exciting.

- Letter is increasing in size. Not quite manuscript or novella size yet though. It's just crap. ¬_¬ Attached random things/drew random things. Don't send it to a psychologist for analysis please.

- I'm doing work!!!1!!11!one

- Quote of the day: These eggs are for the herring gulls! - Some old woman who Polly befriended in ASDA.

( Randomer entertaining pictures behind the cut. )

A lovely disclaimer for you all:

- These pictures are my memories so no slagging off from you, thanksverymuch. Even if they are crap. Ha ha!

- These pictures are all extremely random and have nothing to do with anything.

- These pictures are all of dreadful quality for various reasons, so no telling me that they are crap. I know this.

- I can't remember what else.

- This picspam is in no particular order. It will just confuse you probably.

- If you have dial-up, you might die. There are many pictures. They are not hugely massive though.

( Bring it on, mate. )

That's all for now, kids.

( Memes )

Today was fun. Morning was fun. Went to CP with the Poll again. Hilarity ensued. She bought a man hat. We are such man hat fiends/buddies.

Philosophy lesson/lunch time was s-h-i-t. I was/am still vaugely annoyed. Pft, whatever.

Afternoon was okay. Bio test. Made it up. Chem. Oxidation stuff. I always forget that shiz.

CCF was okay.

That is all.

[ETA!: Do I just want to be Banksy or what.]

_{PS. What the hell does ETA actually stand for, in this context??? I just thought I'd use it and be cool. This admission clearly negates that and makes me uncool the the max.}

Ahahahahaha, today was bloody great. What did I have first? Um. Chemistry. Got to smash up test tubes to extract the Perspex we made the other day. Bloody great. Except we had the extra strong reinforced extra large test tube which was hard to break. ¬_¬ The Ren managed to break it in the end but she broke our Perspex too. Bloody hell.

Had a Core Studies free next, so I went to watch Polly cover books in the library. Fab. Har har, I just distracted her I think. It was highly entertaining though. Quote of the day from Polly: "There's no womb at the inn!" It was very random.

Had a free next as well so Polly and I went on a jolly trip to Castlepoint. She was flush with guilt money from the mother unit so we thought we'd make a stop off at Caffe Nero. Fab. Polly managed to finish her loyalty card thing so she donated me her free drink. Fantastic! Got a hot chocolate. Large. Might as well scrounge as much as possible if it's free. The whole Caffe Nero experience was the best. I laughed a lot for no reason. I can't remember why it was so exciting now. [Remind me, Polly!] I remember Polly spilling her drink as she thrust it at me so I could taste it. Har har!

Yeah so then we went to hang around in Waterstones to find a present for the Goat. We ended up rearranging those Penguin 70s books into colour order. But it was in number order as well. So it was actually in some order. Because putting them in number order makes them into a rainbow type thing. This is a crap description. But ahahaha, it was hilarious. We were being sly first but then we couldn't be bothered. I bet everyone was secretly watching us, being like "What the bloody hell are those kids doing?" Either that, or they thought we were shoplifting or something, considering we were being quite shifty in the corner. It was great anyway. We were stupidly happy afterwards and walked around Castlepoint/back to school being like, "WE ARE SO COOL." Hahahahaha. WE ARE.

( Picture of the wonderfulness under the cut )

Had double Plumbe bio in the afternoon. Shockingly, it wasn't as bad as I thought it'd be. This is always the case.

Had to go to Ground Training practise after school. It was rubbish. ¬_¬ Alex May didn't turn up so we couldn't do anything [as he has all the stuff we need] so everyone just disbanded at 4:15ish. Bloody crap. Waste of time etc etc. We are going to lose.

1. The Ren is kind of annoying. "IT'S LIKE GETTING BLOOD FROM A STONE!!!" Yeah, shut it. ¬_¬

2. Had a talk about uni. It served no purpose other than to distress me quite a bit. Thanks guys!

3. Free. Went to Castlepoint with the Goat and Polly. Goat was being sombre. Polly and I bought practically the same lunch. Except she bought it in Boots and I in M&S. Har har!

4. Stalked Phil under the pretence of buying cakes. Ho ho. Not really, but I probably would have. But he was in the room and his class were being jippy to him so we had some random conversation about how they were mean to him. Bless.

5. Had a rave in the classroom again. Prodigy again. That Lydia. Tch. Crazy firestarter, she is.

6. Graffitied scary item X for Dunc. With labels though. Cos it pained me too much to graffito it directly. The labels are bright yellow. Cool or what. No? Okay then...

7. Double bio. Dull city. Loop of Henle. Pft. Also watched some 80s video which is meant for GCSE. It was about Colin whose "kidneys failed... but don't worry, he's still very much alive! ...and then it's home for a good supper!" It was the cheesiest thing ever. At the beginning it was randomly going on about horses. "A horse's toilet is its stable!" Ah, yeah, thanks mate.

8. Helen and I played "Twenny questions" to guess Goat's lewd activities in Manchester. Honestly. Goat and her loose morals; I am shocked. [/hypocrite] Ha ha.

8. Polly and I conducted an experiment on the way home. Fab. She "won".

9. Still need to do this bloody philo essay. Got about 210 words thus far. Need at least 10 times more by tomorrow morn. Crap.

10. Don't really want to go to CCF tomorrow...

11. More stuff happened no doubt but I can't remember it currently.

Well. Bio and chem lacked their usual joy due to a lack of Goat. Can't believe her. She is the naughtiest goat in Bomo. Honestly!

Anyway. Double bio. Had a test in the Pagemaster's lesson. Not too bad but didn't really do the last page which was worth 14 marks. ¬_¬ Looking forward to almost failure! Next was the Plumbe. Dullness ensued as usual.

Chem. Don't really know what happened. I zoned out a bit. Some year 12 wandered in half way. Think we scarred her for life. Fab.

Lunch. Lay on some desks and had a chat with Row and Gemma about uni and Manchester United and the north. Then Gemma read my texts and I hit her. Bloody lack of privaacy/respect.

Ethics. Wanted to fall asleep but it was okay.

Free last lesson so Pollster and I caught the bus home. Delightful. Went on a mission to Essential Music. Bought Twelve Monkeys. Goodness, that shop is fab. Also, thanks for Polly for the contribution. It shall be a communal DVD.

My right arm is bleeding.

Hum. What have I done today. Can't really remember much...

1. Double free: Went to the IT room. Pretended to do Ethics presentation but just bummed around on the internet. However, I did finish [nearly] my personal statement. Which I was proud of.

2. Philosophy: Rewrote my personal statement a bit. Talked to Mr G about extended essay. I need to start it now. Shit.

3. Lunch: Rewrote my personal statement some more. Finally finished it. Properly. Sorted. Played music over the whiteboard speakers. Not that it will ever happen, but if it someone did ever sing Be Still My Heart to me, I think I'd just die. Love that song so much.

4. Bio: Goat was not there. WHERE WERE YOU, GOAT??? Shocking. Helen was high on prescription drugs. Wrote Dunc a letter. Ate Snack-a-Jacks unslyly. Tought the class about growth phases but the bell went really soon into it so they'll have to wait. Mrs Page said I was good. Hahah!

5. Chem: Did some past paper things. No idea what happened really.

6. CCF: Hilarity ensued as usual. Haymer and Muir [aka Matt and Chris] are having a boys night in tonight. Matt is sleeping in Chris' bed. Ahahaha. I found this hilarious for no apparent reason. Other stuff happened also. Can't be bothered. kdjfklsjklshglsnb

7. Lydia: Must sort out her LJ layout now.

8. Veronica Mars: I do not understand LivingTV. They appear to be showing an episode of VM everyday. What's going on? I have only seen the pilot.

Ta-ra.

Ahahahahaha. Fab. Today was kerazy. I dislike writing these with bullet points but it's easier to do it like that so shush. Here we go:

1. Chem: The Ren was being spazzy. Went over the test we had the other day. Got 18 out of 28. Meh. She was being really spazzy in the lesson and asked me for my test paper and my 2 homework sheet things when she already has them. ¬_¬ She also just kept doing other stuff wrong. Fool.

2. Core studies free: Went to the the library with Goat and Polly. They covered books; I was too distracted to read and/or do work.

3. Free: Went to the common room [dread!] with Goat and Polly to drink green tea and have intellectual conversations. Mission accomplished.

4. Double bio: Got my energy and respiration test back. It was a satan of a test. I got 70%. WHAT. THE. HELL. I think there is something wrong here; I really did not understand it at all and thought it was really hard. I got more than Goat and Lisa as well. They are genii. Eh.

5. Started doing the kidney topic. Dissected a kidney. I got star of the show kidney. Fab.

6. Got more home. Missed the 10! So Polly and I decided to walk home. We are now clearly mega-fit.

7. Chanty was stalking me today. o_O

1. Made orange dye [di-azo enzonium or something is what it's called] and tie dyed things in double chemistry today. What joy. No really, it was quite joyous.
2. Bummed around a lot. Went to computer room with Goat and PeeBee to get brainy on Sylvia Plath for book club.
3. Asked Miss Tilley to read my personal statement. She said it was crap. Basically.
4. Went to book club. The kids are out of control! But it was quite fun, I must admit. Next book is Breakfast at Tiffany's. Amazing.
5. Bummed round some more. Attempted the Times crossword. It was hard.
6. Listened to some old skool hip-hop musics on the Breakdance CD which Goat has lent me. Love it.
7. Philosophy. Hilairty ensued. We had a jolly banter about David Icke amongst other things. It was such a random lesson. It made me insane. Well. Insanerer.
8. Told Mr G to read my personal statement.
9. Heard some shocking gossip.
10. Got home. Had a parcel. How exciting! It was from Dunc. The Shining. I was happy. Thanks Dunc. I love you more each day. Because you are such a nice boy. A crazy one too. In a good way.
11. Oh the dic-dic-dictionary, is very necessary!
12. Got random prospecti from random unis in Wales. Cut it out, prospecti sender guys.
13. Downloading spree continues.
14. Goat - I downloaded Be Still My Heart. IT'S SUCH A NICE SONG.
15. Jim - How was uni? [It's so weird to say that. o_O]

Today, quickly, because I have no time:

- Double bio was dull as usual. We are growing sunflowers and chick peas in SBP bio. Goat has been a good mother and her sunflowers are growing pretty well. Aside from one which got ATTACKED by fungi. o_O One of Helen's chick peas is growing over itself. Confused pea.
- Most likely have failed energy and respiration test in AP bio. I knew nothing particularly. The test was a satan.
- Phoned Andy Wilson at the uni again about work experience but no one answered. GOODO. ¬_¬ Left a message so hopefully they'll hurry up and phone me. Fools.
- Chem was random. Didn't understand much as usual. I really need to do more chem out of school. *is dreadful*
- Chet and I marched round the carpark at lunch today. People watched us. It was scary. We are good at marching though. Fab.
- Had ethics 4th. Ahaha, was greeted by Mrs A and Mr T who asked us if any of us were good at making websites and such like. Everyone pointed at me, and I was just standing there like o___O *shift*. Then Mr G came along and was like, teach me! too. I am going to have to teach them all and/or design/make them a website. How strange this will be. But I'll be able to put it on my Personal Statement hopefully. Which'll slightly make up for the fact that I have no work experience. ¬_¬ I'll show them what's what!
- Actually did work in ethics. It was such a nice atmosphere in there today.
- Had a free 5th. Went to the IT room and scanned things. It was a spree. The scanner was scary and LOUD though.
- Texts from Dunc are the best thing ever. Probably mainly due to the fact that no one else texts me. But whatever. Fab.
- Oh god. CCF. Where do I even begin. Firstly: the slashyness of CCF is the best. I love it.
- Watched some dull Signals presentation first then made a speedy exit with the Ground Training team to practise.
- Marched around a lot. We were a bit rubbish but it was hilarious. XD Alan John was being our leader and he kept calling everything on the wrong foot which made everyone wrong. It was hilarious.
- Sian is cool. All the boys lust after her. XD
- The boys are cool. For the most part anyway. Bless them.
- Ended up standing in a circle and discussing various odd things. I don't think you want to know.
- Boys had a manly dispute. Muir pummeled Leedham. Leedham is a skinny twig boy, just so you know. He reminds me of Rowena. In that he is quiet and says nothing but then he sometimes comes out with these really random comments.
- I am short. Oh, the conversation that arose from my shortness. We were dressing [as in, spacing] and I was behind Muir, and my arm only came up to like, mid back level on him. QUITE AMUSING. Then Shane made some wisecrack comment about feeling up Muir's arse. Oho. It was quite scary actually. I was a bit like o_O;;.
- So anyway. It was hilarity.
- Then, on the way back home, I was waiting for the #10 bus to go home but then a UniLinx bus came, so I decided to get on it. I went to pay but the bloke let me on for free. How random is that. Random but cool!

Hahahahaha. Best day ever. I tagged along to Caffe Nero with Goat and Polly, as we all had a free first lesson. That was jolly. I apologise to you, Goat and Polly if I tagged along and you didn't want me to, but seriously - I had nothing to do. Aside from dull work. Y'know. ¬_¬ I found it rather fun anyway. Your tales of London and Robot Jesus John were interesting and enlightening, yet amusing. Goodo.

Had some randomer talk second lesson. About emotional health. Well. That was interesting. Not. Wasn't too bad though. I learned that I am an extremely positive person. Right. I think maybe, that everyone else was just being emo and I was just being normal. ¬_¬

What did I do third? Oh. Ethics. Bummed round in the liberry doing research for ethics presentation project thing. Saw Chanty/Marie's mother. Said hello. Didn't really do much ethics. Too many people in the liberry = distraction city. Got a text from Jim. Fab. You never text me, Jim. Apart from then.

Went to the 6th form council meeting at lunch. Listened to issues being raised. It's rubbish how the good stuff will happen after I have left. Fiends.

Double chem. Had a test in the first lesson bit. Think I failed drastically even though I had been looking at the answers just a few minutes before. ¬_¬ Damn you, memory! Read an article about Stephen Hawking. Well, a bit of it anyway. I am too slow. Goat introduced me to The Postal Service. They are actually wonderful from the brief bits I heard. More chemistry. End of day.

Goat missed out on the Bus Stop Experience. PB and I had a bit of a lark hanging out waiting for More. Well. The other side of the road got 3 times More than their fair share whilst we got less than More! We were not impressed. We were also getting less from the Yellows too. Shocker or what. Finally a Yellow came and we had to get it, but then shock horror! More pulled up just after we'd got on the Yellow. Oh, the puns. THE PUNS! They were joyous. We'll never get tired of them. XD

Peebee - you need to write you books entitled "PB and More" and then "More about PB" and then "Even More." Oh the quality. Memoir of More and PB. Joy.

Goat - I would like to borrow the The Postal Service CD once PB has listened. And may I borrow your fab Breakdance CD also. Sometime. Or is that Polly's? I don't know. Who knows. No one.

Goat & PB - I love you both.

Dunc - I still love you and your voice. I drew a picture of you today. It turned out quite scary. It wasn't really a picture of you though. It was like, you as an egg. Complete with ski hat.

Jim - I love you too.

End.

TODAY. Was shocking.

Firstly, I finally have got my Philo presentation over and done with. I thought I was a bit good, if I do say so myself. A bit comical and informal. Great. People laughed. With me, I think.

Went to Castlepoint in 3rd. Bought some face wash and moisturiser. Because I actually need it or my face it fall off. It was bloody expensive though. Rip off City.

Had bio and chem in the afternoon. Hilarity ensued. Helen made some more cryptic crypt comments about her love interest. Goat and I played the Yes/No to Helen's beau game. Fun all around. We did guess in the end.

Chem was more joyous. Did some experiments. Dunno what they were about though. Goat spilt butylamine on her hand! o_O I nursed her back to health.

Goat. You are actually the best. I love your pretend blessedness. Because you are blessed, but also crazy. I am waiting for your arene rap tomorrow, alreet.

Dunc. You have a fab voice. I love it.

Well well. I have made a life changing decision today. [¬_¬].

I have decided that I am now deferring my entry for uni till 2007 and that I am going to do a Foundation Diploma in Interactive Media at the Arts Institute. That way, I'll get better and I'll have a decent portfolio at the end of it which will help me get into a decent uni. It's all good. Another thing is that the foundation year at the AI is free! Yay. Then once I've done that, I'll swan off to London or wherever to do my actual degree. Good plan I think. In addition to that, I decided not to do a sandwich year but to just do work experience in any holiday time, i.e. over the summers. My life is sorted.

In other news, today was hilarious. A bit rubbish though in that I had 2 lessons first, then nothing till last lesson. ¬_¬

Double Chemistry was up first. WE MADE ASPIRIN! How amazing is that. It was really fake at the end because it was just random powder, though we did fashion it into a tablet shape complete with the groove down the middle. XD Just as we were starting the experiment, the fire bell went off and we were all a bit like ¬________________¬ cos we already had a fire drill last week sometime. Turns out that some spaz broke one of those "break fire" things; dunno if it was on purpose or not. Joy.

Had my career's interview, in which I made my life changing decision.

Bummed around. Went to Sainsbury's and bought food. Came back to school. Bummed around. Had an enlightening chat with Marie and Lyd. That was joyous. More bumming around. Philosophy.

Was really just like -_____________- in Philosophy. Chloe and Erin were doing their presentation. It took the whole lesson. And 30 mins of last lesson too. Mine is RUBBISH in comparison with theirs and everyone else's.

Need to write debate speech. Debate is on Friday. Crippy. I still don't know who we are against. ¬_¬ Also need to do personal statement.

Kch.

Firstly, I am really confused about what to do with uni and also what to do with A2 courses. I don't know whether to drop German [even though I got one of my best results in it, despite thinking I was going to fail seeing as I did nothing in the lessons all year. It must mean I am actually good at it; and I do know that I am good at languages - I find them quite easy to learn - and German is relatively easy. I suck at some of the grammar issues but the rest is sorta okay.] If I dropped German, then I could "concentrate more" on Chem, which I need to do, cos it is bloody hard. Or I could do IT as an AS which would be useful if I do a computer stylee degree [which is looking more and more likely]. I've already given in the form saying I want to drop German and start IT AS but it's not certain yet so I could change my mind.

Also, considering my crap results in bio and chem, I will no doubt be resitting bio next January, but I think if my results are that awful, and if I find chem hard now, I'm not exactly going to be able to do it at uni am I? I think maybe, depending on my final A2 grades, I'll apply for one or two medical things, and the rest computery things. Hopefully I'll be able to make it.

To be honest, I think I really underestimated AS levels. I didn't think the step up from GCSE would be so bad, but it was, in chem especially. Next year, I need to turn over a new leaf and all that crap, and do work. Properly. [I say this every year. ¬_¬]

Secondly, I decided I am going to make a book list sort of like Emily's film list listing the books I've read and when and whatnot. I keep meaning to keep one in reality in my Moleskine, but I never do, so I'll do it on here.

I got:

- B in German
- B in Religion, Philosophy and Ethics
- C in Chemistry
- C in General Studies
- D in Biology.

I am very confused about the bio mark because I found it very easy compared to chemistry and I missed out loads of 2 of the chemistry papers, so I thought I would fail chem and get at least a B in bio. How deceptive. Aside from bio, I still didn't get what I'd hoped; I know I can do better. Fact is, I suck and had no motivation. I'd hoped for an A in Philosophy/Ethics because I actually did lots of work for that but a B is okay, I suppose. A B in German is fab because I thought I would fail. C in chem is okay I suppose, considering I thought I would fail. Mainly it's just the D I am concerned about. General Studies counts for nowt; see if I care. I got an A in the RS stylee module though, so I was pleased with that.

So I was relatively okay with my results but then I got home and told mother. Cue much loud shouting [you have no idea] about how I suck, should have done more work, should have got all As, exams are getting easier according to the media.

Shut up.

I know I should have started real revising much earlier and I know I pissed around somewhat, but I still did lots and lots of work. I literally didn't go out once or socialise once during study leave [not that I do anyway ¬_¬]. My mother said, "you are digging your own grave." Wtf. It's not like I failed any of my exams. My grades are okay. Not amazing, but okay. I can still get into uni. I'm not dead. The world hasn't ended.

Just because my mother is a genius. She expects to much of me, I think. I know I can acheive much better, but I'm not that clever.

I feel rubbish. Parents are meant to support you and understand; not be so fucking insensitive.

My eyes hurt. I have been crying a lot.

That's all I can think of to say right now.

Farewell. [Don't worry, I'm not feeling emo enough to go slit my wrists or anything. ¬_¬ Nearly, but not quite.]